death machines

I just now this second realized the potentially accidental harmful nature of what i have been constructing. My intent was certainly not to make lethal weapons that cause the viewers do die from suffocation, consumption in flames from the offshooting sparks, electrocution from high levels of electricity. I forgot to mention the slow death from cancerous metal dust. I can only think that viewing something that could have a probability of one in a fifty chances of death at the most, would create a curiosity, an exciting exileration at the gallery show. Ive dealt with this theme before but it was only an imagined possibility. I know its completely legitimate to make weapons as art like Todt or the Survival Research labs, or that coasta rican guy. But i intend to control the situation. Like viewing a euthanasia or a letal injection behind the safety of glass. Really to me, what is more important is the sound the vibrations the forces of inertia (ha spell check spells it that way) the grooves in the metal the elapse of time the accumulation of materials. like dust in the wind. seriously. It speaks about the process of sculptors breaking down materials shifting the elements. In a way artists are controlling the universe, the physical processes of nature. Like the breaking down of rocks to form new ones. I think we all consider how our materials were constructed. Do Drawlers consider how the paper was strained moulded, squeegeed dried and stamped bound and created into a book or a sheet. well oh what was i talking about. duldrums. Death machines thats right the suicide machines.(is that a double entondra because of the band and the snuffing it?)

My sculptures will be protected by boundaries,although i like the Venus fly trap or the kiss of death sort of feeling about some artwork. for the tesla coil I am building a faraday cage. basically a perimeter that is a ground which the arcs or lighting or discharges of electricity will not pass. I would like to cross this boundary though when it is turned off and ground myself while wearing a suit of light bulbs. I am certain that it is possible to do this however I am consulting various electricians, engineers and retired hobbyist for all my installations.
The angle grinder wheel will not spark at people nor will dust hit them for I will construct some clear vinyl or acrylic sheilds. walls that one will still be able to view. I know something dies in not being able to directly see the piece and physically touch the sculpture but in order to graduate I must have a safe show. I am keen to the idea of offering viewers a dust mask or a respirator or even a gas mask to reference biological warfare or how in some countries like japan people wear gas masks because their lungs cant handle the automobile pollution.

It is important that something is deadly and therefore one is drawn to it because that is inherently my personality. I grew up jumping down flights of stairs to impress people to get girl friends. I know Im an attention whore. When people were playing football at recess I flipped through their lining up crowd. its sort of how I deal with social situations. I am over the top exaggerate go to extreme lengths to get reactions, to be noticed to make friends to get what i want to connect with people. obviously the communication doesnt really work to well. but thats the angst session

i can say no more
thats all I have to say about that
I am utterly at a loss for words.
I must sleep
Gary how professional are these supposed to be?